5 day headache

Well, I didn't get lucky and get out of group therapy yet. I'm told that they have to re-assess you on a weekly basis to get it ok'd with the insurance company for them to keep covering you. There goes my excuse. Oh well, it's not so bad really (when I can stay awake). I'm having a better outlook on it than I was before. I think that maybe it's actually doing some good. I think it really helps for me to get out of the house and around people. John said that he has actually notice a difference. He said that I seem happier. I think my meds are helping that too. I was switched back to Lexapro and taken off the Paxil, and I was also given some Abilify too. I had my first one-on-one with a Psychotherapist yesterday. He said that I'm not very nice to myself, lol... And he made me realize a few things that I hadn't realized before. Oh, and he says that I don't open up very well and I put a wall up. I was suprised by that because I thought that I had been opening up fairly well in the group. But apparently they all think I have an "air of mystery" surrounding me. I should just tell them to read my blogs, lol...

I didn't go to group today because I had a bad headache and I was feeling exhausted. I went back to sleep later this morning for about 4 hours and was still tired with a headache. So, I got to thinking that I've had a headache every day since Friday. Thursday night is when my Abilify was doubled. And Thursday night was also the first night that I didn't take Tylenol pm (because the doc told me not to take it anymore). So either it's the Abilify, or it's because I was addicted to the tylenol pm. Which I do think I was very dependent on it. And I'm having trouble relaxing or sitting still. I just feel really jittery.

Anyway, with an urge to start feeling more girly - the other night I bought some polish and painted my toenails for the first time in years. Of course, Mikayla was just intrigued by this since she has never seen it before. So, I had to paint her toes too. She is so proud of her toes. She keeps wanting to show people and get compliments on them. It's so cute!